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I know that the fatigue is supposed to be cumulative but this is ridiculous.  I'm not just tired, I'm very weak and extremely emotional.  My last chemo treatment was Thursday, Nov. 15th, 8 days ago and I was like this by Friday morning.   I had 25 family members here yesterday and was so looking forward to spending time with them.  I broke down Wednesday night because I decided I had made a mistake in inviting everyone.  My husband made me promise that when I got tired I would just lay down and rest.  I spent the entire day resting and crying.  I'm having a hard time eating because everything makes my stomach hurt and I have zero energy.  I make myself eat a little because I keep thinking it's going to help with the energy level.  It's not working.   

Is any of this normal?   I go in on Monday for mid cycle blood work so I'd like to wait until then to see the doctor.  My children and grandchildren are going to be here all weekend and I'm sort of dreading it.   I hate feeling this way!!!

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Bev,

I'm so sorry you're having a rough time.  I was exhausted during chemo.  You have to give into it and rest.  You could have low counts also.  I cannot imagine having company during my treatments.  This whole journey is emotional.  I was one who couldn't show my emotions and it's now catching up with me I think.  I'm 2 years out.  Hang in there.  Call the nurse and talk to her.  It won't hurt and will give you some peace of mind.  Make sure you take time for you this weekend. 

I know it's rough but you'll get through it. 

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I am so sorry you aren't able to enjoy this weekend the way you wanted to.  I can't answer your questions, but I sure hope today you feel much better.

Hugs, Bev.

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Bev,
Bless you heart ... so weary and surrounded by loved ones and wanting to be so strong.

I didn't have chemo, but 7 weeks of radiation.  I carried on as if everything were normal, work, family, and helping my sister out a few days a week.  She couldn't walk due to a horse backriding accident and had pins and fixation devices in her ankle and lives more than an hour away from me.  I also traveled to the west coast during that time for my son's college graduation.

I did all that because I wanted everything to be normal ... but it wasn't.  I was exhausted and I hurt mentally, physically, emotionally and spiritually.  I wanted my family to know I was okay.  But I really wasn't. 

It's okay to rest and feel bad, and in hindsight, I wish I hadn't been so strong, had shared my feelings more.  It's okay to let our loved ones hold us up.  I believe they are much stronger than we think.

We love you Bev, and we're here for you.

Hang in there.  This will pass and you will get strong again, and enjoy many, many Thanksgivings with your family.

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Bren
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Oh Bev sweetie I know exactly how you feel.
IT IS THE CHEMO
Even though our doctors tell us nothing is chemo's fault- this is.
Every symptom you mention- from fatigue to tears is all part of it.
Of course you are exhausted!!!! And you are human, and a very sweet one at that! So there will be tears.
I know that I completely over did it myself and feel like I am about to collapse today. I can't seem to do anything I am so weak- why? I have been in chemo for 8 months... i am not meant to be going to the lengths i went to.
I was a bundle of tears last night when I heard some bad news about a friend...
so you see it is all normal here in Cancerland.

BUT I am able to tell you what it will be like for you when chemo is over- because remember i have done this before.... and I can honestly tell you-straight up- no lie:
IT GETS BETTER!
YOU get better!
CHEMO ENDS and YOU GET YOUR LIFE BACK.

You don't have much longer and soon you will be you again. I PROMISE.

Love you,
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Thanks to all of you.  At least I now know I'm not crazy...just sick.  I slept this afternoon and the company has stayed away today.  They will all be here tonight and I'm looking forward to it.  I wasn't too worried about the fatigue but the weakness bothers me.  I don't have the strength to do anything.  I love Black Friday shopping but didn't dare join the crowds today.  I didn't have the energy for it anyway. 

I love you guys.  I always know I can come here for support. 

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Bev,

It is Sunday and just getting on here to check on you.  I so hope that by the time you read this you are feeling better!!!!  I hope there were many precious moments in your vist with family and that you felt so much love surrounding you which I know you did. 
I had my chemo one day after you and it is my 2nd treatment and I have been on the couch ALL this time.  My legs are so weak I have to tell them to put one foot in front of the other!  I got real dizzy today and it scared me and I have cried alot the past two days.  The tears just flow.  I have no reason why to cry, I just get emotional too.  I think we just want to be out there right now in the hustle bustle of the season and shopping (which I LOVE LOVE to do!) and my husband bless his heart got our tree yesterday, has all of the lights on and it is just waiting for me to decorate which I thought I would feel good enough today but still don't.  I have so much I WANT to do and just can't and I think that is why I am so emotional. 
I have been extremely sick to my stomach!!!!  Have now a metal taste in my mouth after this treatment and just am having a harder time coming back around than the lst one.
I think how am I going to come around after the next two which are BOTH in December!!!!!! 
But we are almost done with chemo and this will be behind us. 
Hugs to you and for added strength each day.
I was going to try to get on the treadmill today to build some strength in my legs but just don't see that happening.
I have lost 16 pds now.  YEAH!!!!!!!
Drinking TONS and TONS of water and bananas for potassium and yogurt. AND mashed potatoes!  LOL! 

Let us know how you are doing!!!!!!!  Isn't this place wonderful to come to!!!
Everyone knows exactly how we are feeling and everyone is so encouraging!
What a blessing this place is! 

Cheryl

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