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I've been thinking alot about Ferne lately. It's been almost a year since we found out about her brain mets. The angel book she sent me sits on my desk. I look at it every single day. Her card is simple and sweet. She said,

"Hi Colleen, I hope things are going OK for you this year. I know we're only a few days into '08, but why not start sending thoughts and prayers early on. Hugs! Ferne"

I never got to meet her in person, never even got to talk with her on the phone. So how is it possible that I miss her, and think about her so frequently?

Loveya Ferne, meanit

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Colleen, I think about her every day.
I have a gift certificate she gave me for Christmas and I can't bring myself to use it because she wrote a note on it and I don't want to give it to the store.

She is watching over us. Believe me, she told me she would. Go buy some really sweet bubble gum tomorrow and chew as much as you can... she would love that.

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I was sitting in my doctor's office several months ago flipping through a magazine while I waited.  I saw an article about breast cancer survivors and recognized her picture with one of the stories.  I knew she was gone.    It made me so very, very sad. 


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Bev,  I read the very article you are talking about on the first day of my rads last June.  It made me very sad when I realized it was Ferne, Gina's good friend.  I remember very depressed that day.  She was a very special lady!  -Lee


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Ferne...
I find a green pebble, green glass, green rock, and even bits and pieces of odds and ends; I've been working on this sculpture for such a long time, its a daily routine.  Ferne is always with me, in some magical, spiritual way, singing, humming, and keeping me company.  I silently say a meditation, and wish her safe travels, and peace.  I know her gentle soul and heart and that she is watching over us all.
 
Thanks for this post.  I think of Ferne, and so many others I miss terribly.  I have many inspired artworks which would never have come about had I not known the lovely people I've met along this road, by-way, street and highway called Breast Cancer.
 
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I know Ferne will come through at the John Edward's reading...
She will probably make a joke about gum or her kitties.
She is with us always.
She really was an angel on this earth. No mere human could have a heart that good.


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I too think of Ferne - especially when we get sad news on another sister.

If only the world would have more Ferne's it would be a much better place.
I picture Ferne and Cy watching over all of us -

Indi, good to see a post from you. 

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I thought about Ferne last weekend and meant to post.  Wasn't it a year ago this week that she died?  March 23 is the date that sticks in my mind.

Gina, I wanted you to know that I have been thinking of you, and Ferne, and all that you both have done for this community.  Ferne, even after her death, has given so much.

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(((Brenda)))
yes, it was her anniversary on the 23rd.
Ferne was a very special person. I have never known anyone like her in my life.
I know she is in heaven watching down on us, and I definitely know that when I get all mired in something or feel overwhelmed, she finds a way to snap me out of it.

Yes, she still gives so much. I will always make sure her picture or name is part of anything we do here.

I didn't post about it being her anniversary... I was going to, but then something stopped me. I could just hear her saying, "Oh girl, don't you go doing that. That was a sad day. Think of a happy day with me instead."  So I thought of the day we got so hopelessly lost in this part of NY where these folks from some country live- I don't know what country, but they sound like Latke from "Taxi" when they talk. We kept pulling over asking directions, and they were so nice answering us- but we couldn't for the life of us understand a word they said!
It was pouring rain and we were reallllllly lost. But by this point we were laughing so hard we could barely speak. And then when the Latke people would answer us it was all we could do to keep straight faces.

The last person we found, I rolled down my window and I asked directions, but I did it with a full Latke accent. I thought Ferne was going to burst. I heard her next to me laughing and trying to hold it in and saying...."Girl, your gonna get in trouble!" But guess what? THAT person we were able to understand! So we finally found our way home.

We laughed all the way with her saying, "You didn't tell me you spoke that language!!" LOL

Think of Ferne and smile. That is how she would want it.

Love to you, Brenda
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Gina - that story is sooooooo   funny ... I was seriously laughing out loud. Thank you for sharing a happy memory of Ferne.  I missed out - as I never really got to know her. She sounds like such a wonderful person.

Do you know when you get to go to the John Edward's reading ? has it been re-scheduled yet ?
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Gina,

Thanks for sharing your fun-derful day with Fern, an Angel always, then and now.  I completely forgot about the day, consciously.  Do you remember the postcards of Ferns I had mentioned?  I was stringing together green beads, with trinkets I made years ago.  I pulled out some notebooks, stationary, and watercolor paper, and the postcards as well as the envelope with Fern's name and address were written on it.  The letter was dated March 21st. 
I am sorry I didn't mail the ferns to Fern.  As an Angel, I think she was reminding me of the most important things in life.  I went for a walk that same day, and found many of the green stones and rocks I've been collecting in her honor.  Every time I spy green pebbles, rocks, stones, or Periwinkles, I think of Fern.  Green is a symbol of breathing, rebirth, life, and eternal happiness.  Fern was all that and more.  Bless you Gina, for bringing Fern into our lives, and for letting us get closer to one who always gave back with her heart and spirit. 

Love,
Indi


You speak French, as well as Greek, Italian, Spanish, German, and a few other languages (always impressive when you write a special salutation to someone from another country); who knew you were fluent in "Latke"?  Ha, ha, ha...thanks for taking us to a day spent with giggles, hilarity and a good humor adventure!  You are fearless; anyone else lost in NYC would cry, panic, yell, and turn the experience into a miserable memory.  Not our Gina!   It always feels great to LOL!

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Indi, I can tell you that Ferne loved you very much. She saw the real you... like we do. And to know you is to love you. I wish you could have heard the wonderful things she used to say about you. 

Doreen, you would have loved her. She was Light. If Light could come in human form, it would be Ferne.

The John Edwards thing is in May. I have to find out when. I put the ticket in a safe place.... now if only I could remember where that safe place was!


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As I read your story about your adventures with Ferne in NYC, I giggled and smiled.  I was dxed in March 09, so I never "met" Ferne, but my goodness, I see her face and feel her energy for some reason.  You have honored her precious memory.

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(((Brenda)))
yes, it was her anniversary on the 23rd.
Ferne was a very special person. I have never known anyone like her in my life.
I know she is in heaven watching down on us, and I definitely know that when I get all mired in something or feel overwhelmed, she finds a way to snap me out of it.

Yes, she still gives so much. I will always make sure her picture or name is part of anything we do here.

I didn't post about it being her anniversary... I was going to, but then something stopped me. I could just hear her saying, "Oh girl, don't you go doing that. That was a sad day. Think of a happy day with me instead."  So I thought of the day we got so hopelessly lost in this part of NY where these folks from some country live- I don't know what country, but they sound like Latke from "Taxi" when they talk. We kept pulling over asking directions, and they were so nice answering us- but we couldn't for the life of us understand a word they said!
It was pouring rain and we were reallllllly lost. But by this point we were laughing so hard we could barely speak. And then when the Latke people would answer us it was all we could do to keep straight faces.

The last person we found, I rolled down my window and I asked directions, but I did it with a full Latke accent. I thought Ferne was going to burst. I heard her next to me laughing and trying to hold it in and saying...."Girl, your gonna get in trouble!" But guess what? THAT person we were able to understand! So we finally found our way home.

We laughed all the way with her saying, "You didn't tell me you spoke that language!!" LOL

Think of Ferne and smile. That is how she would want it.

Love to you, Brenda
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MsBliss, you see her face and feel her energy because she is always around us. She is a guardian angel. I feel her all the time.
I have another funny story to share with you about my dear friend.
We both love candy. And we loved to send it to each other.
But the only problem was, neither of us had any willpower. So we would buy the candy, intending to send it, but wind up EATING it ourselves before sending it!
So many times we would "confess" to each other what we did.

She loved gum. She would stick as much in her mouth as possible. I can't chew bubble gum without seeing her smiling face.

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